In this week’s issue, I want to write something that relates and affects me and so with the rest of the world. I want to say that I think I have screwed up my life for the past several months. I want to blame it to the new trends the society has now been practicing or charge it to the people responsible in the setting of what is right and what is not. One thing is sure to me though: I want to live my life as happy as I can be. But as much as I want to, I realized that there are some things that no matter how much I want to have it, because I think that having it would make me happy, I just can’t make it. I want to blame it to bad luck because I don’t want to accept defeat in every battle I fought but it just allowed me to be a selfish being. The better understanding to this would be the realization that God has plans for me and for everyone else and He makes His plans come true in His time. But I have a dilemma to this. How do we know when things are right? How do we determine the right time, the right moment? How do we know if we are on the right track?
I said earlier that my life is screwed up for the past few months. I said this because I think I have become less focus to my priorities. From time to time, my priorities have been altered and hazed – obscured by novel ideas and experiences and different obstructions that have come my way. As much as I want to blame it to the dictates of the society, and as much as I want to put the blame to just anything or anyone else, I think that the more responsible for this is me. If anyone should be blamed on what is happening to me right now, the problems that I have been encountering all throughout, then I think I deserve to be blamed.
“I should have been particular to my priorities. I should have set my priorities straight and have it still and focused in spite of everything. I should have been more careful to my decisions and should have taken into consideration that I am always the prey and the world around me is the predator. I should have listened to my inner soul and should have demanded my heart and my brain to act in unison and not to go otherwise. I should have controlled my self. I should have managed my character. I should have done everything as I planned it before…” I exclaimed to myself.
Despite all these, one thing is clear to me now. I have no regrets on the things that have happened to me. I chose to let it happen because I wanted to be happy and doing all those things I did made me happy, at the very least. I have no regrets. It had happened already. The best thing to do right now is to keep going on, thus moving on to the right track, treating every obstacle as a mere trial and keeping it to myself that everything happens for a reason. God has perfect plans for me and all these plans He has for me will all come true in His time.